Friday, December 10, 2010

head over heels again

I was sitting at my table working on my laptop when i sensed some motion beside me.  My little daughter, who was sleeping on the bed, was stirring.  She lifted her head to try and look at me, but her eyes were blurry with sleep and her head was nodding and swaying in all directions.  Her cheeks were all puffed up, lips pouting, eyebrows arched up, confused and questioning.  She was looking so very cute, so beyond any description cute, that i just had to get up, lie down beside her, kiss her on her head and pray for her wellbeing.

Once again i felt this fierce tug of love for her in my heart.  Its a different kind of love.  It doesn't compete with the love i feel for my wife.  Or my family or friends or anything for that matter.  It is strong and pure and all-encompassing.  It makes me feel so happy to be around.  To experience it.  And i feel grateful to God for letting me have it.  The experience of being a parent has been so beautiful so far...seems like everything else fades away in comparison.  I know there will be ups and downs as she grows up, but thats cool.  I want to be there for her at every step.  And i want to be fitter and live longer because i want to be there for her for as long as possible.

I hope God grants her a long, full life, and if not, i want Him to give her my share....to experience ordinary stuff and beautiful stuff.....to experience school and college and work and music and dance and colours and nature and falling in love and children and hot coffee and alcohol and ice cream and books and rains and food and friendship...

She has fallen asleep again, and i've fallen for her...again.

12 comments:

Archana Rao said...

Awwwww!!!

How sweet :)

I remember those conversations which freaked you about being the father to a girl! But didn't I always tell you that it would be the best experience?

I'm sure she will grow up with an assurance every minute of her life to the fact that she is born to such wonderful parents!

Wish her a long life full of health, happiness, wealth, education and wellness.

God Bless you idly pidly pom pom.

Vivek Rao said...

thanks :-)

now i'm sure you want me to mention her cool chana aunty (and parrot uncle vai)... :-D

quasibaba said...

dagdu :)

Archana Rao said...

Parrot uncle vai will enjoy baby sitting her!

I think he loves it :)

Rashmi said...

Mowgli! ... She is turning into a complete nautanki.. she knows how to roll her eyes and pout and look cute for her baba and manipulate him all the way... She is only gonna get better with those techniques.. Poor Vivek..!

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saritha said...

Wonderful,heart warming post.Loved it.Beautiful feelings towards daughter,lucky baby to have u as her father.Touchwood for ur relation with ur baby girl.

" The experience of being a parent has been so beautiful so far...seems like everything else fades away in comparison"-- very well expressed.....

Vivek Rao said...

@ saritha: thanks! glad you liked it...

Savitha said...

I could tell you wrote this with your heart !! simply beautiful and so warm...its always so nice to see a father emote abt his baby !chiu is so very lucky to have you as dad :)My deepest love and affection to her !

Vivek Rao said...

Thanks Savi!!
:-)

Anonymous said...

So true so real...one of your best Viv Ache.

Vivek Rao said...

"Viv Ache"...now, that sounds familiar!
Who is this??? Pray tell...
:-)